thoughts this morning (every morning really)

i don’t like and can’t function in this american life. i don’t want to buy what they’re selling and that seems to be all thats happening here, buying and selling. i’ve tried, i’m no young kid, i’ve gone to college, had real jobs, bank accounts, credit cards, even owned a house, but none of that is for me. i’ve been struggling all my life with the pressure applied by society to live the go to church, go to college, get a job, acquire debt, start a family life and i am tired of it hearing it and tired of feeling guilty for not doing it. i don’t want a shit job, even a good job. i don’t want children. i don’t believe in god or country. i don’t want to own much of anything, maybe a truck, some books and a piece of land near the mountains where i can live quietly. i want the work i do to be for me and not a corporation. i’ve worked hard in this system for years and it’s a trap, it doesn’t always feel like a trap because you can self medicate with products and entertainment and it works for a while and everyone you know is so proud of you and your “success”, but it never fills you up, only leaves you needing more product and a greater spectacle to push down the dissatisfaction until it’s so far down that you hardly hear it calling out to you, but sometimes, when you allow yourself some quiet you can hear it. you can hear it when you look up from your phone and catch the colors of the sun shooting up into the sky. you can hear it in the wind, in the rain, in the trees and you can hear it in your own voice if you listen. what do you do when you hear it? i don’t know, not everyone can run off to a mountain. i guess a good thing to do is treat it like a friend and listen, what it wants you to do may be the best thing you’ve done in a long time.

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8. sharanam said: ” you can hear it in the wind, in the rain, in the trees and you can hear it in your own voice ” interesting cause that’s what I call God
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26. misterchu said: Much of this is true. For you (and others of us also, but that’s another thing). Listen, then. But in the far-too-sensible meantime, try and increment your steps, your minute to minute self, your life, towards the sound. Be well. MC
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